64. Who Are You Fooling? (11 November 2024)
We’ve been
telling people, “We will only be gone for four months,” as we prepare for our
mandated “home assignment.” We’re going to the U.S. to have meetings and travel
around to talk about our work, as well as to have our term agreement renewed. This
was all supposed to happen next summer, but as Lebanon’s stability and safety became
more questionable, and as Israel spread more and more misery around, our
supporting bodies moved that four-month excursion to a fairly immediate
departure, just four days from now. When we say to our colleagues and friends, “We’ll
be back in four months,” are we fooling anyone with this hopeful but uncertain
declaration? Who knows what monstrosities are yet to be perpetrated on peoples
indigenous to the region, with the bloody complicity of the government of “the land
of the free and the home of the brave”? Who are we fooling except ourselves?A side street in autumnal Beirut
(4 Nov. 2024 - Gemmayzeh)
Genocide, or “ethnic cleansing”, or “ensuring
our security”, or the legion of other names assigned to it is so commonplace that
we are no longer repulsed by the word – except when you are the one
promulgating this policy. Exterminating those in the way of your expansionist
designs is acceptable practice around the world, whether by Israel or
Azerbaijan or Turkey (the ones that most immediately impact me as an Armenian, also
linked together by their cooperative genocidal efforts). Brutality obliterates morality,
and all the hand-wringing in the world will not protect the rescuers and
witnesses trying to bring a modicum of humanity to this misery. As Israel
targets hospitals, ambulances and journalists, and laughingly destroys families
and lands, and as Azerbaijan (with Israeli technology) and Turkey destroy
Armenian architectural heritage, convert churches to mosques or lying about
their origin, they prepare themselves to richly receive the wrath of God (see
Romans 1).Even Lebanon's cargo holders are painfully
crying "Akh!" (20 Oct. 2024 - Yerevan)
Also puzzling are the regular announcements
of an imminent cease-fire, an imminent end to hostilities in Gaza, the West
Bank and Lebanon. Is the intent to fool a gullible public somewhere in the world?
Or to raise hopes among those subjected to this sub-humanity, so as to shatter
those hopes completely? Depending on who you talk to, this war will either be
over in a couple of weeks, or will continue until Lebanon is also annexed and
ceases to exist except on 20th century maps.Political parties marking out their
territory, just like it was... 50 years ago.
(11 Nov. 2024 - Geitawi)
What causes me the most pain is seeing the long-term effects of this attack on Lebanon and the impotence or unwillingness to confront it, particularly as it relates to inter-communal relations. Apparently one of the aims of this war is to create internecine strife, pitting one community or demographic against another, trading blame, scapegoating, and so forth. It’s the “divide-and-conquer” approach of any occupying power throughout history.
Coming to an even more personal
level, the wartime conditions further threaten and weaken the Armenian
community of the country and region, and therefore the church, moreso than it
already was last fall. Rather than us thinking ahead and building towards a
more healthy and stable society, we are witnesses to the dismantling of what
has been built for the last century. The saddest of all is the dismantling of
families. Armenian parents actively encouraging their children to emigrate. Armenians
with dual nationalities permanently, not temporarily, relocating. Skyrocketing numbers
of divorces among Armenians. Rampant substance abuse, physical, sexual and
mental abuse, wasting of income on legal and non-sanctioned gambling. Hopefully these children will be
just as enthusiastic about
actually reading.
(25 Oct. 2024 - Yerevan)
Those of us in positions of responsibility must now focus on disasters at the expense of other non-urgent but important issues. Recalling the post-Genocide period, when the Armenian people were subject to similar stresses, the people in leadership intentionally looked at the community’s long-term needs and urgencies, not just immediate relief work, and built a legacy that endures till today. In this crisis if we must find a way not only to ameliorating people’s suffering from the war, but moreso to plan with faith for the future of what is the most important center of the Armenian Diaspora. Without visioning and planning we are only fooling ourselves into thinking that this community will continue its existence.
One cannot help but feel a change in
the capital, after the influx of a million internally displaced people on top
of the three million residents of the metro area. Cars parked everywhere. Unfamiliar
faces and dress. Arguments, fights and much worse over “squatters rights”. Generators
catching fire from overloads while municipal electricity is scarcely supplied. The
diffidence of what few police and army personnel are still visible. If Lebanon
was a DIY country (see my previous post), then this is a DIY war, where the population
is left alone to figure things out and survive by their own wits or
connections, while bosses continue their decades old, self-serving political wrangling
as usual.The faces and names of soldiers who fought
and died in the Artsakh war and
deportation, graffitied all over
the capital. (2 Nov. 2024 - Yerevan)
And when the war inevitably ends, what then? Will things magically return to their previous state, and people effortlessly drift back to their flattened villages? Will massacred families and clans magically reappear and reclaim their birthright? How much can one country fool itself? I say “one country”, although Lebanon is not really one country but an amalgam of tribes living within one political boundary. The building and rebuilding of society and the development of a healthy social contract where none are marginalized is one of the greatest challenges facing Lebanon in the coming decades, and is something that has been waiting to be addressed for its entire history.
Meanwhile, our friends’ faces bear fearful
and questioning looks when we tell them about our change in plans. “You must know
something, that’s why you’re going,” they say outright or imply non-verbally. Try
as we may, we are unable to assure them that we have no insider knowledge about
what is to come, something that contradicts their doubts concerning why we are
leaving now instead of later. We cannot fool them into thinking otherwise, nor
do we want to. And we hope we are not the fools, either. Only through hope in
God can we look forward to their fears being disproved.LebCat 64: Intensely focused on birds
flying around... and certainly aware that
it is only a reflection? But they're so close!
(9 Nov. 2024 - Bourj Hammoud)